My rating:
Catherine has been enjoying the single life for long enough to know a good catch when she sees one. Gorgeous, charismatic, spontaneous - Lee seems almost too perfect to be true. And her friends clearly agree, as each in turn falls under his spell. But there is a darker side to Lee. His erratic, controlling and sometimes frightening behaviour means that Catherine is increasingly isolated. Driven into the darkest corner of her world, and trusting no one, she plans a meticulous escape. Four years later, struggling to overcome her demons, Catherine dares to believe she might be safe from harm. Until one phone call changes everything. This is an edgy and powerful first novel, utterly convincing in its portrayal of obsession, and a tour de force of suspense.
Had I been dreaming about him, or had he really been here? All I could see was him: his whole weight on top of me, pinning me down. I imagined those handcuffs, which had already broken the skin of my wrists, cutting into my swollen flesh. The smell of him; stale alcohol breathing into my open mouth.This isn't real. He's not real.
REACTION AFTER READING THE BOOK
I cannot form the right words to express how much this book affected me.
It scared me.
It angered me.
It made me remember.
It made me realise how lucky I am to have gone out of a toxic relationship.
I wouldn't say that I was in an abusive relationship, but I guess it was about to lead to that if it went any further. And reading this book made me remember. And it was painful to remember.
What the character in this book went through was probably 50 times more brutal and vile that what I had gone through.Compared to this, mine is probably comparable to an ant bite. Aside from the abuse, she also had to deal with the after effects of it. Which was actually as painful for her as it was when she was being abused.
I would just like to get this out... I WANT TO FUCKING KILL THAT SADISTIC PSYCHOPATH SO BAD! I wanna chop him up and feed him to the dogs... I know it's a sick thought but man... I am so upset and angry with this person. He... was not a human being. How could anyone fucking not see how bad he was hurting Cathy?
Okay... I'll stop here and get on with the review.
THE GIST
Cathy used to be this lively, outgoing girl who loved to go out to bars and spend time with her friends. But after going through such a traumatic experience with her ex-boyfriend Lee, she changed.
The trouble was, this frightened person wasn't me. I was used to making conversation with people. I was vivacious, friendly, talkative. Keeping my mouth shut was always a struggle. I wondered if I would ever get used to it..
It all started when she met Lee. He was charming, attractive, sweet, and nice to her friends. They started to get more intimate and then started living together. But Lee was keeping a part of his life away from her. He doesn't tell her what type of job he has or where he really lived and all that. But Cathy didn't care at the time because he was perfect and their relationship was what she always wanted it to be.
But sweet and caring Lee actually had a more dark and twisted side. He was obsessive and manipulative. He was overly curious about everything she does. He needs to know everything she does and where is and what she's doing. She did not have any freedom of her own. Then when he doesn't get what he wants from her, he started to be more agressive. At first it was only during sex, but after a while... the hitting started... when he wasn't satisfied with that, he started doing more horrible shit.
Instead he stumbled, half-fell through the door, and as I rose from my seat to meet him his fist hit the side of my face with a crashing blow, sending me flying backwards into the side table..
She developed such an extreme case of obsessive-compulsive behaviour that it she had to check the doors, windows, locks, and everything at least 4-5 times. She couldn't connect well with people. She sees Lee everything. She was always anticipating that he would come back for her.
All of the time, day and night, my brain generates images of things that have happened to me and things that might happened. It's like watching a horror movie over and over again.
And he would... eventually.
MEET THE CHARACTERS
Cathy/Catherine
I loved Catherine. I loved how strong she was despite of all the hardships she had to encounter. You see her before and after and you get why she suddenly changed and how the change affected her and how she sees herself and everything else around her.
I'm not going to say I knew what she went through because I don't. But the author wrote her character so well that you get to feel what she feels, to hear her thoughts like it was your own. Every blow she receives from Lee made me cringe and it was almost as if I was the one at the receiving end. The author was really brilliant that way. She made you care about Cathy and how much she doesn't deserve all of the abuse and its aftermath.
The Abuser
The thing was about Lee, was that he started out pretty good. The author wrote him in a way where you would fall for him the same time Cathy does... So when he started getting abusive... You start to detest him because you develop feelings for him during the beginning of this book.
But then he started changing.... and then...
I hate him to death! Like I said earlier on the intro, I wanted to murder him and feed him to either the dogs or the sharks or whatever creature that could eat him... I know... Its brutal because that's what he deserves. What type of guy does that anyway? What type of guy punches a girl like she was nothing and leave her in a room almost bleeding to death? What type of human being does that??? Aww.. Goddamnit!! This is getting me so angry again.
Fucking sick sadistic psychopath!
Stuart
He's a guy in present Cathy's life. Someone she didn't want to let in but eventually did. And the good thing about him is, he wasn't the reason she wanted to get over her OCD, she wanted to do it because she wanted to get better. He's there for her, but not in a way that he wants to intrude on some things that Cathy wasn't ready to share.. He reminds me of my boyfie actually... ^__^ So yes, I liked this Stuart guy.
THE WRITING
I thought the writing was just phenomenal. I liked the way she used the alternating timelines to tell this story because it was really effective in getting to know what caused Cathy to be who she is in the present..
Also another thing I would like to comment on how she wrote Cathy during her OCD moments. Some people would get annoyed with it because of how repetitive some of the scenes were especially when Cathy was checking on the doors, the locks, windows and everything and then just does it again. I didn't find it annoying at all. I found it realistic and thoroughly researched on.
This book is very graphic, not only on the parts showing Cathy's OCD, but also during those times where she on the receiving end of the abuse. Goddamn... it was painful to read. It was so disturbingly realistic.
THE PLOT DEVELOPMENT
I think this book started very well. It started in a court room scene where they were asking Lee some questions. Then from then it went back and forth from before Cathy experienced the abuse and after. It was such an effective way to tell the story.
This book was so well paced. Each chapter has the exact amount of scenes and dialogues that will keep you wanting to turn the page and figure out what went on and how it came to a point where he became this dude's bobo doll.
FINAL WORDS
This book is amazing. I didn't find it amazing because of the topic, but how the topic was written and shared to the readers.
It will make you feel a mix of emotions based on the events that lead to the character's breakdown.
It will make you think about how you would react if you were in the same situation.
It will get you angry about how these things happen in real life
It will upset you to think that some people will never understand what people in the same situation is going through or have gone through.
It will make you realise that people close to you could not be who you thought they were.
It will make you appreciate how lucky you are with the partner that you have.
I don't think I could point out anything negative about this book. It was a bit of a nuisance to read about Cathy's repetitive actions, but I thought it was necessary so I was okay with it.
All in all, this book was a solid read.
Realistic characters and events.
Very on point writing.
Plot development was perfect.
The ending.. I thought it ended so well. It was an open ended ending.
I highly recommend this book. I think it's my first 5 stars for the year... I think... Eeehh.. I'd have to check, but yeah this book is a very good read. If you haven't read this one yet, please pick it up, most especially if you're into psychological thrillers.
Sounds like a great read. I'm all about a book that gives me feels!
ReplyDeleteWow, what a really great review!! Not something I would normally read, but I can see you really enjoyed it. I might look out for it. Thanks for sharing :)
ReplyDeleteYes, please! I love suspense and this sounds amazing. Thank you for your review and for your enthusiastic recommendation. I am adding it to my TBR. Big suspense fan here!
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